Been reading blogs here and there, cause i'm bored/really need to catch up on some peeps' lives.
That is provided they still have a life after being trapped in schools!

anyway, most of their posts are comprised of school. homeworks. cca. relationships.
and then looking back at mine, its all about me (cant it be anymore obvious? *roll eyes*) and all the things that i'm feeling strongly at the point in time.
5% ,max, on school.

i just cant find anything that is interesting about school that i want to share.
or rather, i hate school so much and feel that im getting no where near accomplishing any dream at all that i simply given up on it as a whole!
in school im a hypocrite. a joker. a gangster. a big sister. a slacker.
i talk bad about ppl, knowing full well that karma is going to work its cycle and others will talk bad about me too.
sometimes i get so affected by it that i EVEN plan what i have to say so that i dont look bad or be deemed a loser.
therefore ensuring that there is minimal things to talk behind my back about.
then again, i have no fucking life at all (unless u wanna count the number of hours i spent sleeping) to even produce an interesting conversation.
i rather listen to ppl talk than to hear myself crap.
but my mouth has a mind of its own =.=

i feel like a loser.
i am a loser.
im all talk but no action.

recently, i found out that im attached to these phrases
"its okay de", "i gave up long time", "i also didnt bother to do xD"
it should be the reason why i end up bottoming the level for my physics test =.=
then again, im really unaffected by it.
or rather, i dont noe how to react to a norm anymore.
in class, im the only one, AGAIN, with a L1R5 so freaking low (18) and an expected score of 3.9
the others, lowest is 11/12 pts and expected score of 1/2+
i dont even noe why i take my 2 worse sciences in JC anymore...
oh ya... i wanted to take the norm combi, so that i will be like the rest...
but what the fuck is norm when im not doing okay at all?!
perhaps i dont even belong to the norm at all.
im a weirdo.
i so regret coming to JC.
i want to grow wings and fly out of this iron cage that traps me.

I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS ...

1000X

im just hoping that a miracle would happen when i reached the 1000th "I HATE ESSAYS", and essays would then be obliterated from the surface of this world.

dont disturb me.

im still in the process of reaching 1000...

I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS I HATE ESSAYS ...

Was reading Special A and suddenly this thought hits me.

the only 2 reasons on earth that i will be dating will be

1) im seriously bored with my mundane life and wanna experiment with something new

or

2) im stupid enough to really fall in love with a boy and gives consent to go through all the possible emotional dramas

lolx!
if i really gone with the first option, it will be under the condition that that guy already knows of my agenda and agrees to it.

any old how, i bet i will still be single and happy for the many years to come! ^^

i feel SOOO SORRY towards all the kids in my class...

i ate too much delicacies yesterday at the korean BBQ restaurant and faced the deadly consequences of suffering from a series of stomach discomfort this morning.
Hence i could not go cycling with them...
moreover, i anyhow threw my hp one side and could not find it in time to sms the kids that im not going to be able to make it...
hope that they didnt wait for too long for me today...

haix!!!!!

i SWEAR that i shall never eat at a korean restaurant a day before an outing, only eat it max 3 times a year!

those who know me, will know that a foods-swear is the utmost deadly swear that ng gi gi can ever make... haix...

anyway, the reason is that normally korean restaurants will have MANY small dishes of kimchi made from various vegetables and also other light food snacks.
so after not touching these joy-s in like 1yr and 2mths, after my hols spent in korea last yr, i was really excited and ate most of the things.
bad move
even though they are in small servings, eating EVERYTHING really bloats u up.
so even before the kalbi is up and cooking, i was already more than half full, filled with nothing but vegetables =.=
then i also need to drink water to wash my food down, so when i finally reached the main course, i could only put in around 6 small pieces of meat into my stomach.
i also have a few spoonful of korean cold noodles.
then after our meal, we went to the hagen daz outlet in the esplanade and i had a macadamian nut ice-cream
@.@
i dont know how i manage to stuff everything in, but i did it.

BUT BOTTOM LINEL: the food are way too GOOD!!!!!

oh! and i saw misato at the outlet opposite hagen daz ice-cream shop that night too, with 2 of her girlfriends.
as expected, i liked misato's outfit ^^

Well~ my favourite girls have finally debuted as 2NE1 with their official 1st single FIRE!

2NE1 debut를 축하합니다! 저는 너듵이 영원히 팬! ♥

Although i'm happy, but their debut also brings me to feel depressed...

My girl CL is the leader of the team and she is just 18 like me...

it makes me feel depressed that i'm still clueless about what my future holds for me and worse of all, do i even have any talent to accomplish anything at all!

i still remembered what i told Grace before, on the trip back to Yishun.

"I look okay? But there is no use at all in that! In this world, you can only be either completely drop dead gorgeous but dumb or super talented/intelligent but ugly. And i would gladly fall into the "talented/intelligent" category anytime then to be okay looking but have nothing. Reality holds no place for ppl like us, the average ppl."

to me, at least for the kind of lifestyle that i crave for, it is impossible to attain with just being average!
i don't want a mumdane life of just school-cca-home then later when i grow up, work-home.
but i dont want to lead an irresponsible life of just fun and neglect my duties either.
Therefore i got to be one of the best in a certain area, which i have no freaking idea what it is...

I literatelly feel the time passing me by and saying "bye bye loser!" when i still cant find what my potential is.
ppl says that teens are the golden age where you start finding more about yourself/prepare yourself for the future!
But what on earth am i doing, just trying to get each school day over and done with and hoping that holidays come faster and stay longer?!
im already not young anymore.
im stepping into my 20 in what? 2 yrs time?
okay give and take another few months!
and still without any accomplishment/accomplishmen-in-process.

oh ya! what is even better, when i was happy announcing the debut of CL, many ppl heard of her age and goes "What the hell are you doing then?"
these ppl just know where to rub it in.
CONGRATS!

you know what? maybe i should just go brainwash myself with a lower expectation of life.
then i would be more merry with life.
anyone who knows of a good brain washing machine, tell me.

there are actually many things that i want to be, but starting now is just too late!
i mean hell ya i can just go for the job without any proper qualification, but if i dont succeed and gain some recognition, i know i would go further into depression.
i want to be a fashion designer, interior designer, jewelry designer, advertisement designer, entertainment world's backstage worker, radio DJ, travelling show's host etc.
but all these need qualifications!
then again, when i reflect on all those jobs i want, its all too superficial.
its all seem to be just about the limelight and the glamorous life.
but i want them. either of them.
with my kind of family background, i definitely do not qualify too.
everyone of them is average. VERY average!
They take their average life as it is, but i just cant go with it anymore!
however im too weak to fight for them.
because without their support ( which is a fact that they dont support my airy dream jobs =.= ) and their acknowledgement, i just cant take the first step either...

I'm such a weakling!

it has been like what? nearly 5 months since we last saw each other or even communicated?

anyway, dear suddenly suggested to have dinner together through sms.
so dear, dear dear and i went out on sat to have a mini gathering.

we went over to SSC to eat at the japanese desert outlet. the deserts were not bad and its my 2nd time there. only diff is that now there is this weird waiter who succeeded in bringing out my GL side and wrote bad feedbacks for his service.
CONGRATULATION OL' BOY!
he was just plain weird.
reminds me of mdm jean lee and queenie combined together...zzz..

EWWWW~!!!!

at the end of the day, we sat down at BK, yishun GV there de, and started talking, like what we had practically been doing all day.
okay! so it was more like bitching~ even though we dont really know the person who the others are bitching about, but we just clicked!
THAT, my friend, is the beauty of bitching.
you dont need to noe the person, to understand what a pain in the ass he/she must have been!

i love my girls. however, it would be even better if i was not hurt before...
then i would have loved them even more... but no less, they are my dears~

note: i believe in karma too. so i bitch without a care, because i know that the person i bitched about must be bitching about me right at the same moment too. *tehee*

My little boyfriend.
the finest damn thing on this world!

and he is also the only miracle in our family, being the slimiest.

and now i shall disclose the secret to his success....

*drum roll*

reject milk!!!

anyway, ya it works for this chap all right.
fussy eater who starts being choosy about his food since like 8mths old?
then all the baby fats (is it wrong to call it that? i seriously dont noe) *POOF!* no more!
leaving this charmer behind.

P.S: 叔叔 said that he is going to train him to learn to swim and be able to do 10 pull-ups by the age of 12. i will leave you guys to imagine what kind of eye-candy he will turn up to become.

really went online and bought myself this pair of high-cut.
its still pretty to me, but i'm not pretty at all for the shoes... =(

wore it to school on a monday after hesitated for the whole night before...
just because my ah ma and liyi
(not at the same time, and they didnt noe what the each other would say)
told me to wear it as...
"since u already so weird, by yourself, wear a pair of shoes that would seem weird in your uniform would not make you any weirder! *smile*"

...dots...

i must have been really weird for them to say the same thing to me...
but the irony is that i thought i was just being me...
as in a NORMAL TEEN!

nevermind

anyway, ya, its weird.
ESPECIALLY in my uniform.
cutie Jia Qi commented "wow! gigi, you going skiing ar?" *chuckle*
and being me, i held my face in my hand and went "yaya, skiing" *laugh out loud*
what to do?!
i also feel that its so funny, so laugh together lor!

have no idea what kind of a lizard this is, but it had loitered around AJ's monsoon drain for a few days.
and i thought that when it was constantly sticking and swallowing his tongue, made it looks cute.
just for that few moments.

P.S: Hui Shia was really determined to feed this poor chap with the lemon slice from her iced-lemon tea on my 2nd encounter with Mr. Lizard. it was a friday that day, just after a tedious session of afternoon P.E. But Ade pitied that lizard and told naughty Hui Shia to stop.