Computer was screwed since long time.
but it decided to outdo its record of many bluescreens, with now not showing anything on screen at all T.T
that's why i can't do anything whats-so-ever at all!
*pissed off at myself*
must be what i'm doing somehow, AGAIN.

anyway, i'm B.O.R.E.D!!!
no one to call to go out with.
Jae Jae is "BUSY" with doing NOTHING at all!
(i bet my ass that she is not sleeping, like what her excuses are, based on my 6th sense)
and i have no one close enough who isn't studying for A's to call for =.=
i'm so pathetic...
i wanna go out... mommy~ *sob sob*

been to many remedial lessons these weeks and falling ill quite easily than before.
i couldnt sleep at all, especially this year.
and what is ironic about it is that, i'm actually a person who can even sleep while STANDING!
this is bad... like REAL bad.
i was literately lying on my bed, staring at the creepy shadows made by the trees that were blown all over the place.
then later, after telling ah ma that no where in hell am i going to school that day, i was talking to myself in my mind 0.o
i tried to stop, but then it was like an interview that MUST happen and so i sat on the edge of my bed, giving a mental interview to myself while staring blanking at my tv screen.
it lasted for about half an hour?
i think i'm losing my mind.

kekeke...
after i looked at it again & again, i cant help being in love with my decal x)
its s freaking PRETTY!!!!

when i have an urge to do something, i cannot stop.

i must do it right that very moment or i'm never going to do it.
so i decided to paste my decal on my wall today =)
pretty?
actually its prettier when u see it personally! ^^
but like what they say "爱美就要付出代价"
and i took a hell of a time getting it up and ready, with my auntie there instructing.
she was comfortably there lying on my bed while i was struggling with the tall ladder T.T
auntie helped paste the 3 blown away leaves that you can see in the pic!

with this new design, i wish it will bring into my room endless breeze~ ^^
and maybe some of my favorite flowers too =D

i like shoujo manga, because of the romance.
i feel the feelings in there.
i hate the bitches and side with the heroines.
i want to tear the mask those villains wore and reveal the gentleness of the heroes.
after reading, i ALWAYS felt envious and that its time to start to spice my life with romance.

but then again, after a good night sleep, everything turns back to normal.
i see a cute guy and its like "yeah he's cute. must be popular~"
i see a cute girl "such a cutie, should have lots of suitors~"

then the cycle goes on again.
without any emotions that holds me strongly.

people get vexed with their relationships or ways to get their thoughts across to the other party
while i'm here unmoved by anything.
ade told me to get a boyfriend, but how to get one when all i can feel is everything but love?
i think i need to rewire my emotions.
i haven't feel anything close to romance for yrs.

CURSE FRIDAY!

1stly, i got prejudiced against by my MATH teacher MS BOB!
she complained that my math file was thin, but i told her all but 3 of my latest assignments are in them!
she still complained and ended with a "你好自为致!"
WHAT THE HELL did i do wrong to her?!
just because i didn't follow the boys and call her "God"?!
then one boy's file with only notes and QUESTION PAPERS was checked and B.E.L.I.V.E THIS!
she just smiled and told him that she will want him to refile the thing.
then Misato got her file checked.
she prepared it for 2 FULL WEEKS and yet she was doubted that she did not do ALL her works at all!